Processing the last week

I didn’t have the energy to write the last week, nor would there been anything worth reading.  It’s been tough.  Not in the sense of the startup – things are the same, moving along, uncertain, every day up and down.

My mentor was right to send me out here, though I wish I would have done it a year ago.  This is the center of the universe, and I’m but a speck of dust on a sand dune.  
Early last week I wrote to the VC who sent me out here and said I feel like I’m in an intro engineering physics course, where the information piled on is so great and overwhelming that a good third of the students just quit, the other third fail, and for those who make it through – well, there’s more work to do but they know what to expect.
I am broken.  Humbled.  I’ve tried to avoid these feelings my entire life, and here I am, away from my family and friends.  I’m faced with the biggest challenge of my life and my confidence is shattered. I realize so many mistakes I’ve made throughout this journey and I’ve put a massive strain on my family. 
Yet, I put one foot in front of the other and continue forward.  One day at a time.  No guarantees, no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.  Failure is not an option, but it is a possible outcome.  I know I’ll come back stronger, but it’s going to take some time to get there.